I’ve been going a little bit crazy lately. I am so desperately close to several milestones and my body just doesn’t want to give those victories to me lol. At 205.6 lbs, I will be considered “overweight”, I will weigh less than my husband, and I am SO close to onderland! The scale just isn’t cooperating. Yesterday I was 208.2, then for no apparent reason I was 209.8 this morning. This is the dance I’ve been doing with the scale for weeks and it’s really starting to get to me.
So… I don’t know if it’s a wise decision or not, but I’ve decided to break up with my scale. I am a “weigh yourself every day” kind of person… but I’ve recognized lately that I have been WAY too focused on that number – despite feeling my clothes getting bigger and my body changing, I can’t seem to let go of the fact that the scale isn’t moving in the direction or at the speed that I want it to.
Tomorrow I’m going to weigh myself, I’m going to be weighed at a check-up appointment, and then I’m putting my scale away until the next Monday – which just happened to be my 8 month “anniversary” from surgery. I’ve weighed myself every single day for 14 months and I just need to relax for a week. That does NOT mean relax from staying on plan… but relax by letting go of the number fixation. I feel like it’s starting to become unhealthy. NO MORE! At least for now…
Like I said, I don’t know if it’s a good idea or not, but I’m promising right now that I’m going to let go of my obsession for a single week, and see how it goes. Wish me luck lol!