OK, OK…. I apologize if the title of my post has gotten Carly Simon stuck in your head for the rest of the afternoon. But, I have been having the same topic of vanity rolling around in my head for the past couple of days and wanted to share so that I could see what others thought about it!
I haven’t had surgery yet (so I might be getting ahead of myself)… but I am DETERMINED to get my life on track and live (and feel) the way that a 27 year old woman is supposed to live (and feel). I am three months into the supervised diet and have been successful and I’ve also started to see a therapist, so I really do feel like things are going to be changing in my life in the next 2 years.
I’m concerned though about becoming vain. Why do I think this? Because I have already started doing A LOT of research into plastic surgery. I think that in our positions, this is normal because excess skin from weight loss is a big deal and it’s a good idea to start saving money early – in fact, the plastic surgeon that I’d like to see someday recommends starting to save at the time of WLS.
HOWEVER, what I feel like isn’t so normal is the fact that I found myself Googling Invisalign clear braces the other day. WTF! Why? Because my two front teeth shifted in college after not wearing my retainer long enough and the SMALL gap between my two front teeth has bothered me for years. Then, I have found myself look at tons of clothes online as well as new hairstyles.
I’m starting to feel like I have the potential to become very image conscious after losing my excess weight – which has never been “me”. Am I going too far? I feel like there is a difference between wanting to approve your appearance because you are feeling better about yourself and then completely going overboard. Where is the line? I guess some of the things I’ve been rolling around my head (like the possibility of fixing my teeth) just feel like too much. Then again, maybe I’m just over-worrying like I do with everything!